I haven't been on in about a million and a half years and still dont really have much to update. I see myself kinda losing connection with this for I dont really find myself inspired by anything lately. I just havent exactly been in the mood and currently I'm not feeling much better anyways. Im still sick and Im annoyed and my head hurts and I dont feel like talking to anyone at the current moment but I just had to get my rage out so I simply decided to write it down here. My friends have just become annoyances and I really dont know what to do anymore. Its almost as if I find myself tagging along so I dont find myself alone... I hate feeling alone, Ive gone through so many years of that already, I just dont wana repeat them again. I mean...Im in high school...shouldnt these years be the best of my life? Well if they really are then I dont have much in store for me in the future. >.<; Hopefully this is just a temporary state cuz if not, I'll probably snap into insanity. Thanksgiving break just arrived and I have absolutely no plans for the whole 4 or 5 days...I dont even wana know how long it is...well whatever, its nothing new....sucks doesnt it. =/ Hopefully I'm just having one of those really bad weeks where life seems as though it just cant get any worse but it seems as though no one can lift my spirts and that usually never happens so I dono...I just hate this.